School and Lies

I've never truely enjoyed school, there has always been something or someone looming over the day. I have always hated deadlines and when the teacher announces an exam or a special day i dread it as much as a week. I have just started my gcses and i must say i hate them. After some complicated discoveries which i won't go into now i discovered that what i am working towards is a joke. I am forced to go to school and forced to do what they tell me. I am a high achiever and always in the top sets but now i am losing my drive and ambition. I looked at my future and how my education will effect this.

I am currently behind a 40,000 pounds project at the age of 15. I am full of ideas and money making schemes which often work but i cannot put all of my time into this because of school. When i confronted teachers and parents about this they said that i need my education to get a job. I do not want a job. If i can plan and run a £40,000 project at 14-15 what am i going to be able to do in the future. Why am i going to need to prove myself to an employer when i won't need an employer. It is so frustrating that nobody actually understands that i am wasting 6 years of my life at school. Then my parents said well think about it you will be learning new skills to help your business. But then i said no i won't! and the reason is that the school denied me business studies. The reasoning was they needed 20 people for a class and only 16 people subscribed to the course. Why is my life and my future being governed by what others think is right and being governed by the actions or in this case the lack of action of other people. It is my life is it not? Do i not own my life? Can i not choose what to do with my life? Why? Why do people who do not know me or my projects have the right to dictate my life and tell me what to do and then force me to do it even if it is bad for my situation.

Now my situation is doubley frustrating when i found out about the truth behind christianity. Now i am not some whacko conspiracy theorist but it doesn't half annoy me when my parents say "don't say that its blastpheming" or something. I found a document stating all of christianities ideas and then quoting the exact same thing from earlier holy texts from other religions. To cut a long story short it was prven to me that christians just took stuff from others stuck it together and got people to join. It was a crowd pleaser of a relgion. A story for everyone. Western society lives by christianity, the laws and the school work are all dictated by it. This annoys me then that i know its a load of rubbish and that not only am i being forced to do something but i am forced to do ity by a false relgion and a load of christians who clearly don't know about the lies and are just blindly preaching this crap.

Life should not be about getting a job. What then? You get a job, work for the rest of your life, go into retirement and then die. Leaving little or no impression on the world. All because you have been forced to gain qualifications. I have learnt more with my government work and my council work (yes at 15) than i have all year. I have learnt some actual life skills that i can use and improve upon. Like public speaking, manners, respect, accountancy, project management and lots more. I don't need to know about bloody circle theorums and some dodgy old greek man who figured out how to work out a number. Because i cannot apply this to life.

A few days ago i started to look for other organisations that thought the same. The closest i found was the illuminati, and not the devil worshipper ones the other ones related to the persian empire. This discovery of the illuminati linked in with the ocnversations i had with a saracen man, he told me about the persian empire and how great it was and about all the values but i didn't realise it was what the illuminati stood for too. Anyway, i am too young to join or even be invited.

I looked for further like minded people. But found nothing. I am hoping somehow i can get out from the trap i am being led into and i actually start to make a difference. I would give anything to find a group of like minded people and a group that will actually teach me what i need to know and not what others want me to know.

New Years Eve

This time of the year again. I really don't like new years eve as it is a sign of the end of the holidays. Back to school. We are doing the usual, going to a "family friend"'s house to sit in a room full of moody teenagers and kids, whilst the adults sit and eat and get a bit drunk. We sing a song, play a game and go home. I never enjoy this night, i always hope i'll be pleasantly suprised but alas i am never pleasantly suprised at the moment.

Happy New Year